Tuesday, August 23, 2011

Questioning

Thank you again for all of your sweet encouragement as I decide what to do with my future. I have had a great experience here so far. I have a great apartment (minus the no hot water thing, haha!) & a great roommate. I've enjoyed seeing the city thus far and the few people I've met that I will be working with have been great. Stacey & I were even able to have a few relaxing hours on the beach today, which I wanted to use to hopefully clear my mind & rejuvenate my heart!

I simply question whether my heart is in teaching, which many of you know I've questioned a lot. I'm praying through the wave of emotions that have hit me within the last 24-48 hours. I only want to give students my best & if my best isn't here then I'm not willing to put them through my regrets.

I have told my wonderful friend Stacey & director that I will be making a decision within the next 48 hours as to what I will be doing, whether that be continuing on with this journey or finding a new road. Lots of conflicted feelings right now but I know God has a sweet plan for such a crazy mixed up heart like mine. I simply hope that my prayers & heart will focus on His plan & be at peace with whatever He should ask me to do.

I appreciate all your friendly & wonderful insight! You are great people with tremendous hearts.

Love you all!

Monday, August 22, 2011

Today is Rough

So, today I was super pumped about seeing my classroom & visiting our school. I wish I could say that I ended the day on just as good of a note.

I'm tremendously grateful for all of your prayers of well wishes & your sweet comments as today I've had a "pity" day. I saw my classroom, but it is not yet finished. My classroom was the former art teacher's classroom. It was not what I expected.

Well . . . maybe I should just say today is a day that has made me realize all the things I'm grateful for back home. A place I thought I wanted to give up, now there's nowhere else I'd rather be. It's crazy how coming 1/2 way around the world showed me that a Saturday night sitting with the sweetest princess in the world, is a huge blessing. That even though I can't stand packing, moving, & unpacking a bazillion boxes every school year, at least I have those things to help make my classroom what it is. My furniture might have splotches & cuts but I have a great home. That although I do not always show them the love & respect that I should I have great family and friends.

I'm struggling today . . . & hoping & praying that the days get better. :) Thanks for your prayers too!

Friday, August 19, 2011

Arrival in Tanzania

Well, for the most part we had an uneventful trip. (Praise God!) Other than a slight downpour during our layover in Ethiopia where our bags got soaking wet, all flights were on time, all luggage arrived, we made it to our apartment, we got some shopping done, & finally we slept for 13 hours, so I'd say we're doing much better!

Funny thing, we got to the airport in Cincinnati only to realize that one of my suitcases was 14 lbs overweight & the other was 18 lbs overweight! Yikes! So, thankfully at the last second I had thrown an old suitcase into my Mom's car to take just in case. Well, thankfully I did that (definitely just God looking out for me). For my overweight suitcases to come it was going to cost $210 PER SUITCASE! But, to add an additional bag it was just $150! So grateful. Of course, Stacey packed 3 suitcases, 2 of which were exactly 50 lbs & 1 that was only 53 lbs! I'm notorious for overpacking. Although, I don't really feel like I overpacked, since we're here for quite sometime. I think what made my suitcases way overweight was that I used vacuum packs, which although it is great for space conservation it also allows you more space to pack which adds weight.

I have taken lots of random pictures of our apartment so you can see where we live. Pre-decorating & post-decorating. We brought a few items from home to help make our place a little more home-like. We love our kitchen tablecloth, it's very girly but also very colorful (& our apartment definitely needed that!).

We have met our landlord, she lives directly below us. She's very nice & thankfully her children speak English so we are able to communicate with her. She has cute little grandchildren. I'm sure we will be loving on them soon. However, I met Natianela today (her 3 month old granddaughter) & realized I wasn't totally ready to start loving on those children yet. Gave me a big lump in my throat when I was talking to her, I miss my Mary Emily like crazy! The day & time will come when I am ready for that but having only been here a little over 24 hours I'm not there yet. The other good thing about where we live is that directly next door to us is a teacher that works at the same school that we do. She's currently in the U.S. for summer break but will be back at the end of August. We're excited to meet her. Our bathroom has been interesting, there's no rod for a shower curtain so it is currently draped across the room using sticky tack & a push pin. Check our my FB soon for some interesting/innovative things we've done since coming here. Something we've had to adjust to is, outside of our window at night we can hear a Muslim worship service. We're not sure if that's just during Ramadan (sp?) or not. Reminds me of Haiti, except there it is Voodoo.

We also met a guy at the airport that we quickly became friends with. He is here with the University of Minnesota working on a project to eliminate blood born pathogens (I think!?!), he is the country manager. He has spent time in Tanzania before, except in Arusha. He is now in Dar (the same city we live in) for about a year. He does however live in a different part of the city & because of the traffic & bad roads we are about 2 hours apart.

We haven't had much of a problem adjusting to the time change. We got here Thursday afternoon (Thursday morning in the U.S.) & we did a ton of shopping, set up our internet & a few other quick things before making it to our apartment. It was totally dark & early evening before we made it here. So, after unpacking a few things & showering we slept for the next 13 hours. Then, today we got up & got to it with other things. So, the transition went quite well.

I must say, I'm so thankful that I came with a friend. Having Stacey here has helped a lot with the transition. We are able to do our shopping together & get our house in order together. She even made a yummy spaghetti dinner tonight! Otherwise, I'm not sure I'd be coping as well. Especially considering upon arrival we found out our apartment does not have air conditioning or hot water. Ugh! What a bummer but so far we have managed. We are buying additional fans for our rooms but it has actually been a bit chilly here at night. This is their "winter", summer will not be until December or January.

We will hopefully see our classrooms on Monday. We have not been to the school yet at all, but we also haven't really had time. I'll update you on that soon. We have gotten to meet a couple of people that work at our school & they have been very kind. In fact, one is coming tomorrow morning (Saturday) to take us shopping again! We've been told tomorrow we are going to the "Wal-Mart of Tanzania". I'll let you know what I think. Haha! Our school did not have a moving allowance, which we were somewhat disappointed about, but after arriving we are able to see why. They purchased brand new beds, mattresses, double hot plate (we don't have an oven), & refrigerator for us! We were also each given $200 upon our arrival to use to purchase household items (mainly kitchen items as our kitchen had nothing in it). So, they have been very accommodating and helpful since our arrival.

I'll post pictures soon! Please keep the prayers coming that things continue to go well here. :)

Sunday, August 14, 2011

Saying Farewell to the Princess

1st I must say a HUGE thank you to the many people who came to my going away party last night. Wow! I felt loved! Thank you! Thanks to my Mom for the yummy treats and being the work-a-holic of the event. Thanks to the Stephen's for allowing us to take over their home. & thanks to Derek for being the "wine expert" that purchased the wine for the evening.

Then . . . on to the question I've been asked 10,000 time since announcing I'd be moving to Africa. How are you going to cope with saying goodbye to sweet Mary Emily (my niece)? YIKESS!!! My heart hurts just thinking about leaving my favorite princess. But, through a few tears and lots of prayer, God revealed something I totally didn't expect.

As I spend every precious moment I can with the cutest princess in the world...God laid it on my heart that Africa isn't just a selfish dream I've had for so long. Instead, it can be a teachable journey for my sweet niece. Through my journey/adventure she can see that sometimes dreams are hard to follow, but with God all things are possible. Although, the world thinks you're crazy or seems to provide every reason why you shouldn't go follow some crazy dream, my God is far more powerful than any silly distraction of this world. I hope that as Mary Emily grows older she can see, yes, her aunt is insanely crazy (& crazy about her!) but if you have a little faith & a heart for the Lord, you can do absolutely anything.

There's nothing I want more for this sweet princess than for her dreams to come true & for her to love Jesus! & I simply hope, that though I'll miss her more than ever, she can see that her Aunt Shannon, had a dream & a love for the Lord....& she got to live a dream & serve the Lord.

Mary Emily - Aunt Shannon loves you to the moon & back! & here are some of my prayers for you: - that God gives you a heart of adventure & faith on fire, - that you may know God so intimately that upon every heartbreak/tear/frustration/fear you can know that you are NEVER alone & He LOVES you like crazy, - that your every dream comes true, - that you have the faith to seek out what God has in store & the courage to achieve all that He has planned for you.

Africa bound in just 2 short days ....